Posted by Jay

Birthday will Always be Happy Because of YOU! :)


O God, I thank You for giving me

Another year of life.

I thank you for all the people who have remembered me today,

And who have sent me good wishes.

Thank You for everything

That I have been enabled by You to do

And to be in the past years.

I thank You for the experiences

Of the past year:

For the times of success,

Which will always be happy memories;

For the times of failure,

Which will remind me

Of my own weaknesses

And my need of YOU;

For times of joy

When the sun is shining,

And for the times of sorrow

Which drove me to You.

Thank you for Fr. Alfred. I learned and realized

Many things with him.

Sana kayo ng bahala kay Fr.alfred, Lord.

Thank you again for Jara. For her sound

Support and love for me.

Walang kapantay!

Thank you for the Youth Ministry

For giving me inspiration and strength.

Lord, lakas ko ang youth ministry.

Alam nyo po yan.

Thank you for my friends,

Na walang sawang nagpapayo,

Nagpapalakas ng loob,

At nagmamahal sakin.

Thank you for my parents,

Lagi nyo po sana silang alagaan.

Lord, thank you sa tawag Ninyo!

Malaking regalo po iyon.

Sana patuloy ko pong maalagaan ang tawag niyo,

At makasagot na din ako ng maayos in time!

Forgive me,

For the hours I have wasted,

For the chances I failed to take,

For the opportunities

I missed in the past year.

Forgive me that I have not made of life

All that I might have made of it.

Help me in the days ahead

To make this the best year yet,

And in to bring credit to my self,

Happiness to my love ones,

And joy to YOU.

You know what I mean, Lord,

And You know my heart’s desire!

This O ask for Jesus sake.

Amen!

 

Posted by Jay


A LETTER FROM JARA

hindi ko alam kung anong anghel ang kumakalabit kay Jara. na tuwing kailangan ko yung advices niya, bigla nalang siyang nandyan ng di ko inaaashan.

this letter was sent thru email again.
and you know what? this letter was sent last July 16, 2009 pa pala.
at hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari. bakit hindi ko nabasa to.
at hindi ko rin alam kung anong anghel ang kumalabit sakin
para mab browse muli ng emails ko.
ngayun pa.
ngayon pa na sobrang kailangan ko yung mga salita na binitawan nya sa sulat na to.


01:42,150709

What gets you out of bed in the morning? Ü

What are you in love with, what seizes your imagination, will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in the morning, what you will do with your evenings, how you will spend your weekends, what you read, who you know, what breaks your heart, and what amazes you with joy and gratitude.”

I know it will be a narrow road, and it won’t be easy.

I didn’t know what to expect.

I read again the message of Bro. Utoy from your blog, “I understand your apprehension basta tungkol sa vocation. Tama ka, hindi mo ito basta-basta madi-discuss kahit kanino nang di sila maiilang, maguguluhan, magdududa o mawawalan ng interest. At ang hirap ngang humanap ng taong makakausap tungkol dito, yung tipong sisiryoso at mag-eencourage sayo. And to think, this is the time when you needed all the the support and prayers you can get.”

Haauy. Immediately, I sensed a boo-boo moment. Was it inner peace? I later learned why.

Love kept us going.

Haauy.

Remember, how God fixed and prepared everything in fine, appreciating life as we see it through our eyes. Then suddenly, God surprises us, share that corner until it became our world. Pym was shared and became our second family.

Our four years being together went by smoothly. We were best friends. We could cry and laugh together. ü

It was battle inside- to let go or hold on. It was a total wreck.

Paulit ulit akong kinukulit ng isip kong balikan ung mga panahong nakaupo lang tayo nagkwekwentuhan, nagtatawanan, nagkukulitan, ung kapeng pinagsaluhan natin nung kahapong Masaya tayo, ung mga istorya mo, pati mga luhang, ewan ko ba, bigla nalang pumapatak.

Tapos Isang araw…….

haay..

… parang ang layo na.

Literal malayo nga, nasa Baguio ako, nasa Bataan ka. Ilang milya rin yun. Pero hindi lang pala sa milya masusukat ang distansya… pagkagising ko kahapon, eto na :’(

I had tears in my eyes reading your blog how people loved you at your hour of need. At paulit ulit kong naririnig ung bokasyon, bokasyon.

……..haay. BOKASYON.

Natawa nalng ako bigla, bakit kasi iniiwasan kong pakinggan e assigned tone ko nga pala yun para sayo.

Oo, at Pinagdarasal kita.

Ako na ata yung pinakamadalas mong paglabasan niyan. Ako na ata ang pinakamadalas makarinig niyan. Ako na ata ung madalas mong iyakan sa nararamdaman mo.. Ako na yata ang laging magsasabi, “mahal na mahal ka ng Diyos at maswerte ka dahil mas mahal na mahal ka pa Niya ngayon.” Hindi to ordinary sa isang girlfriend, ang weird. Oo ang weird talaga, kahit ako nawiwirduhan talaga. Pero pinakamasarap na paguusap natin, tuwing umiiyak ka sa harap ko, nahihirapan, naguguluhan, natatakot. Kasi naman mas nakikita kong, bukas, Magpapari ka.

Lord said, “…Look, I am going to seduce him, lead him into desert and speak to his heart…”

I whispered: You have seduced him, Lord, and he let himself be seduced, so be it!”

Totoo, naniniwala rin ako na may bokasyon ka. Sa mahabang panahong pagkakakilala ko sayo hindi ka sumusuko sa nararamdaman mo. Hindi mo titiisin yung galit ng magulang mo tuwing uuwi ka galing sa simbahan, *pagod, gutom, masama na yung pakiramdam kung walang nagtutulak sayo. Hindi ka makakaramdam ng kagaanan sa paglilingkod at hindi ka magkakaganyan kung walang napakalaking nagtitiwalang Diyos sayo.

May halong lungkot at pagtatanong sa puso ko nung binabasa ko yung blog mo.

“Di mo magagawang pumunta ng lihim sa Manila for a vocsem kung walang grasya ng Diyos na nagpalakas ng loob mong gawin yun.”

Oo nga. Hindi mo magagwa yun kung hindi ka nagaalab sa tawag Niya. Oo nga hindi mo magawa yun dahil nanghihina ka nga eh pero dahil sa grasya ng Diyos, nagkaroon ka ng liwanag, nagkaroon ka ng lakas ng loob.

Jay. There is one person out there just for you- His name is Jesus, and He wants the best for you.

Discover in prayer how God wishes you to act.

Discern more. [it’s the feeling that we discern, not just the ideas.]

DECIDE.

[[ don’t discern forever sabi nga ni Bro Utoy “there is never really the right time. We can always say, di pa ako ready kasi kailangan ko pang mag-grow up, kailangan kong tulungan ang family ko, kasi nandyan pa si Sugar, kasi ganito, kasi ganyan. Kapag ganun ang mindedness, tatanda ka na lang eh hindi ka pa rin makakapasok.” Ang galing. Fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything. ]]

About the signs thingy,

I agree again with Bro. Utoy, look at the signs, moreover, signs are to be tested. Don’t just decide based only on signs because devil can also produce all those signs. -Fr. Green

………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

Haaay.

I’m happy nilalabas mo tong nararamdaman mo sa mga kaibigan, perhaps thru blogging, para hindi lang ikaw yung nagdadala. Continue seeking spiritual direction from somebody more experienced. Ang dami ko ring natutunan sa sinabi ni Bro. Thank you sa mga katulad Niya, he spoken like Erps. :))

I know it will be a narrow road, and it won’t be easy.

Jay, sa huli kalooban pa rin ng Diyos, wag kang magalala, wag kang matakot, wag kang malungkot. Anu pa man, palagi lang kaming nandito, palagi lang rin akong nandito. Pamilya tayo di ba. Makakaasa ka sa mga panalangin ko. Hindi man madalas ako ung nahihingan mo ng lakas ng loob at sinu nga ba naman ako sa lakas na maibibigay Niya, makakasiguro kang kasama mo ko sa paglalakbay. Hindi nga lang tayo nakaksiguro kung hanggang saan, hanggang kailan. Maraming nagdadasal para sayo. You’re very much loved Kuya, Jay.

Till here..

For the one called, it is being loved by Christ that moves us to get out of bed in the morning.

Fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything.

P.S.

hindi ko magawang magkomento sa mga sulat mo. hindi rin kasi ako magaling dito. never rin atang lumabas sa bibig ko ang mga to. Masaya lang ako ngayon. Basta.. lucky day today. Ok tayo. :’)

Lord said, “…Look, I am going to seduce him, lead him into desert and speak to his heart…” I whispered: You have seduced him, Lord, and he let himself be seduced, so be it!”

Lucky day today and I know you know what I mean. ü

I believe that there’s much more into you na hindi ko pa nakita sa loob ng apat na taon at siyang manghihingi ng atensyon mo ngayon.

*nga pala, hindi ka expressive eh pero this time you expressed more than enough.

Magpapaka-fan na ko. ang galing ng mga sulat. Ang galing mo magsalita. God is in you. ü

May potential ka!. :))

You are The Best. ü

jara.. ü


thank you so much jara.

thank you for always being there.

please keep on praying for me.

hindi biro yung pinagdadaaanan ko ngayon.

kakaiba mag iwan ng test si Lord.

at palagay ko bumagsak ako. :(

akala ko decided nako. then suddenly.

di ko alam ang nangyari.

mukang kailangan ko pa ng mahabang panahon to decide, to discern.

i hope to find my place, so my life can fall in place.

i know in time i'll find place, in the greater scheme of things!