God said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Cor 12.9-10)

My passage for the day... Nahihirapan na ko! Hindi kaya I'm not for this? Bakit nung panahong sobrang active ko sa youth ministry pakiramdam ko tama lahat yung ginagawa ko. Pakiramdam ko natutulungan ko talaga yung mga kabataan. I feel like I am loved by everyone. Bakit ngayon, ganito? Parang lahat mali. PARANG WALANG PATUTUNGUHAN KAHIT MAYROON NAMAN TALAGA AKONG GUSTONG PUNTAHAN! Nahihirapan nako. Hindi kaya I am not for something I want to be someday? Parang namamalian nako. Hindi naman ako dapat dun. Pakiramdam ko ang sama sama ko para doon. I am not worthy!

Pero sabi sa isang paborito kong Telesine, hindi ko naman daw naramdaman na i-pursue this something dahil magaling ako. Dahil baka kasi umasa na lang ako sa sarili ko. "Our calling is not about us, rather it is about that God loves us in spite of ourselves in spite of our imperfections." "There is no perfect vocation only a perfect intention and the willingness to trust and surrender ourselves. " -(maging akin muli)

In the greater scheme of things there will be few things that matter that much to get you down.

I have learned to believe that everything happens for a reason and if all that I have gone through is what lead me to this place ... then maybe it was all worth it.

Mga kapatid, I am sure you are thinking. Bigla akong bumalik to blogging. I broke my own rule din na hindi mag FB for 40 days. I just need an outlet! Help me. Help me pray. Crucial ang coming weeks and months. Kailangan ko ng grasya na magpapalakas sa akin na ipagpatuloy ito. :(